Friday, 29 September 2006

Well, I've managed to crawl out of bed again.... hooray!... medal, medal, medal!

I find it really hard to believe I'm a bona fide loony. Sometimes I think I've made the whole thing up, just to get out of working and lie in bed all day. I'm sure one day soon the shrink will get tired of toying with me and expose me for the fraud that I am... "you are the weakest link... goodbye... you pathetic little shit".

Thursday, 28 September 2006

Still dossing around and sleeping most of the time. I was supposed to see the shrink yesterday but he was off sick. Hope I haven't been bringing him down.

In the meantime I'll just keep taking the tablets... grudgingly, as ever..

Thursday, 21 September 2006

So much for my new lease of life. I slept all night and all day until my wife woke me this evening at 5:45pm. Still tired yet.

Wednesday, 20 September 2006

The past few months I have been going to bed around 11pm and not getting up until 5pm the next day. However, I managed to get up at 10:30 this morning as I had agreed to look after the neighbours dog. I took the dog for a long walk around lunchtime. It was nice walking in the woods, throwing sticks for the dog and just the sound of the birds and the wind in the trees. Once home, I watched Countdown and fell asleep in front of the telly, waking just before my wife arrived home at 5:45pm. It sounds dull, but that's been a good day for me.

Tuesday, 19 September 2006

Well here we go again, yet another attempt to maintain a blog. My last try was in February when I was hypomanic. Although initially full of wit and humour (as you can see, I'm still a bit too modest), I became a bit paranoid after insulting some readers and so in a panic I deleted the blog. I return now to find someone has hijacked my bipolarmo address and is selling designer sunglasses under my handle! Ggggggggrrrrrrrrr!

Anyway, what's happened since February? Well, my hypomania elevated into mania and I subsequently got hammered with antipsychotics. Olanzapine burst my bubble and brought me back down to earth but unfortunately didn't stop at ground level. I continued to plummet down to the good old depths of despair and was stuck in a swamp down there for 6 months. As you can imagine, I have not quite managed to get a beautiful tan after spending the summer in bed. However my antidepressant seems to be starting to kick in now and I'm coming out of that diffuse zone and back into reality. At the moment I'm on Venlafaxine 450mg as well as Lithium 1200mg.

Hopefully it won't be long until I'm writing some funny stuff again.

Mo